So our baby was chromosomally abnormal. In this fucked up world of infertility this information makes me happy as my Fertility Specialist tells me in our appointment. Afterwards, I’m in the car processing everything we had been through and the information I’d been given, what kind of person have I become where this type of news makes me happy? But it has to, because if they found nothing wrong with the baby, then why did I miscarry? It is one less thing to worry about before we get on a 22 hour flight to do this cycle.
I didn’t realise how tense I was about this appointment until this morning. I’ve been waking up at 5.30am for the last two days which is not like me at all, normally you have to kick me out of bed after I’ve hit snooze 10 times, so I knew something was up. It wasn’t until I was driving to see her this morning with my stomach churning that I realised I was apprehensive and nervous about the conversation that was to come, a lot was resting on this appointment.
Thankfully she cut to the chase once I was in her rooms as I was a bit of a mess, the baby had abnormal chromosomes related to aging eggs, Trisomy 9 and 22 and the baby was a boy. I don’t think I needed to know that second part, but I saw it on the paperwork.
The biggest part of our appointment was running through the list of medications from South Africa and tweaking to suit my particular needs. I’ve had time between the miscarriage on November 25th and now to think of every possible question and scenario to throw at her, so in I went with a list as long as my arm.
Should I be on Dexamethasone instead of Prednisilone? Should I be on a stronger dose of Prednisolone for longer? Do I need Intralipids? Can I take the pill with clexane? (All answers were no by the way). So the long and the short of it is I’ll omit the contraceptive pill from my donor cycle due to Factor V Lieden and be doing the same immune protocol as my last cycle,
- Doryx antibiotic 100mg daily for husband I both for 10 – 14 days prior to EPU
- Synarel twice daily to downregulate my ovaries
- Prednisolone 10mg from when I start Estrogen
- 40mg Clexane daily from when I start estrogen until BT
- gestone for progesterone support post embryo transfer
She didn’t want me to do intralipids as I already have vein/clotting issues and she sees no benefit in them, I know that many disagree, but I’m just going to go with what she says for this cycle… all things point to the immunes I’m already on being enough.
All I need now is my period so I feel like I’m getting some where, I’m currently on cycle day 59. Yes, 59. I did a random OPK about 10 days ago and it showed positive so I’m hoping she shows tonight or tomorrow. The specialist sent me for bloods to see where I’m at and I have a script for Provera should nothing happen….
I’ve come away from this appointment incredibly positive which is great. I’m emotionally ready for this cycle now and just want to get things under way. We’ve just found out the husband has to go to Brazil, Mexico and Toronto on the 11th Feb so he’s going to have a lot of travel under his belt before we hit Cape Town in March… pity we can’t use his points towards our flights, but I think it will be too late. I’m hinting at using them for an upgrade to Business for our return sector but so far it’s fallen on deaf ears.
I’m choosing to see the positive in this miscarriage outcome, her words to me as I was leaving were “You will get pregnant on this cycle if you get a good egg… that’s all you need Em”. So I’m buoyed by that – she also gave me a referral to an OB such is her confidence which felt totally bizarre, but you know what? I’m going to roll with it.